As many of you have heard Nate and I are expecting in July! It seems so unreal how fast it's going and how everything is working out so perfect. I feel so blessed to be able to be pregnant and bring such a sweet spirit into this world.
When Nate and I first got engaged and talked about our future family we always said we were going to wait at least two years so we have time with each other and by then we should know what and where in life we are and which direction we were heading. About a year ago in nursing school we had our maternity class and I was so amazed by it, I was so anti- baby and finish school where I am so close, but after that class which should have probably scared me of ever giving birth it really opened my mind of having a baby and how big of a miracle the whole process is. That month I was also able to be in on a delivery and once again what a miracle it is. During the delivery and especially after the baby was born I just cried, it really is the most amazing thing and the biggest miracle on earth. So after that I knew I needed to stop being so hard headed and after many prayers Nate and I knew it was the right thing to do. But after our 2 year anniversary and months and months of tears and no 2 pink lines we started to worry. Luckily I have an amazing mother that works in this field. We found out I had (PCOS) polycystic ovary syndrome. Which pretty much means it's an imbalance of female sex hormones like estrogen and progesterone. It makes for irregular menses, cysts in the ovaries (which I don't think I have), and troubles with infertility. So we tried a few medications that try to level out your hormones and sometimes help enough to get pregnant. After months of nothing happening and finding out I don't even ovulate they brought out the big guns! Clomid, which stimulates the release of hormones necessary for ovulation to occur. It is mainly used for treating female infertility.Clomid is used to stimulate ovulation (the release of an egg) when a woman's ovaries can produce a follicle but hormonal stimulation is deficient. So we were told you try this for about 3 months and then after that you have to take quite the break so it doesn't cause any cysts because of all the estrogen. So directions is take day for 5 days , take one pill daily starting on day 4 of your cycle. So we tried the pills for the first month and on day 14 I went in and did blood work to see if I was ovulating and on day 14 my blood work showed nothing! Not ovulating one bit! That really was hard to hear, just like the last 9 months I really just thought it was so impossible for me to get pregnant. My mom told me some times the clomid takes a few months because your body just needs to realize what we were trying to do and not get too down. Usually on day 21 you also do blood work, but for some reason we didn't because we didn't think I even ovulated so no need to check my progesterone and really see if I ever peaked during ovulation.
So on Halloween day I was getting ready for a Halloween party and for some reason I remember my mom telling me sometimes at day 28 it shows up you were pregnant. I had a few tests and I thought oh what the heck I will try it. But every month taking a test and seeing it negative was so hard, I would cry seriously every time I saw that one line. So I took the test not thinking much of it just thinking it would turn out like the rest. I let the test sit for a few minutes walked out of the room came back in and saw one of the most amazing thing 2 LINES!!! The bottom one wasn't as dark as the top one, but like I said I had taken many tests and never ever once saw 2 lines! I dug into the box and got the directions out and read read read, finally it said if 2 lines show up one lighter than the other that means positive!! Oh my gosh I was going crazy! Nate was in class of course I tried calling my mom and sister no one answers! So Nate gets home I show him and he had to read the directions too, I still tried to not get to excited. So we went to the party not really thinking much of it then my mom finally called back and I told her and she said ASPEN THAT'S POSITIVE! So as soon as we got home I took another test same thing 2 lines! Then I couldn't take it I needed a digital one that says either pregnant or not pregnant! So at 11 pm we head to Wal-mart and buy a test. Like the first one I took it and walked out of the room so nervous gave it a few minutes came back in and it said PREGNANT! I started dropped and starting crying! I kept asking Nate how did this happen?? Like a typical man he spelled out S E X. I said no no not that ! I said my blood work said I didn't ovulate it just wasn't possible and once again my sweet husband said sometimes there are greater things than science and technology, heavenly father has more power than that. Immediately I called my mom crying and of course that night I downloaded every pregnancy app possible. That next day I went in for blood work to make sure my HCG level was going up and my progesterone was good. I did blood work weekly for about a month making sure we have a viable pregnancy and only one baby! ( the clomid is famous for multiples). Every week my pregnancy level rose higher and higher! Every test I took after that I kept! I think I have about 4-5 in a bag, disgusting yes, but you don't understand how long I have waited to see those 2 lines!!
I am just so so so so grateful for the power of prayer and fasting. We had done everything possible and never gave up hope. We are so lucky it worked our first time taking the clomid! It was fun because it was a surprise to us because of what the blood work said! I kept asking my mom after my blood work isn't there anyway it really could have worked and we missed where I ovulated? She kept telling me no, and like I had saw the blood work showed nothing, but like Nate said earlier. There are higher powers than science. Wow sorry that was so long, but I have been wanting to type up the story so I can remember it, so here it is! We are so excited to be parents and so be a part of this miracle. I am so grateful for my sweet husband that kept my spirits high month to month telling me it will happen when it's suppose to. I am not a patient person so that was hard for me to learn, but I truly think it happened when it truly was suppose to! I am so excited to be a mom!!! :)
